Saturday, April 22, 2017

Depression

Hello friends!

I just wanted to drop in and say I have not forgotten my blog.

I have been going through a very deep depression.

I did not realize just how bad it had gotten until I nearly lost my job this week.

Monday I even scared myself to the point I thought I don't want to be here anymore.

I am seeing a therapist and I have a doctor appointment scheduled to maybe change my anxiety medication and seek further help.

Last year was an extremely terrible year + moving and resulted in a breakdown of my overall health and well being.

I know it was for the best, but my own Father took from me the only place in the world that I have felt safe and loved. As my wonderful therapist pointed out I am grieving what I left and lost even thought the change was for the best.

The real crap part is that my Dad moved out from Granny's about two weeks after I did.

If you can please spare a few prayers for me I would greatly appreciate it!

I will keep you posted.

Much love,

Tonya


Tuesday, February 21, 2017

A new start.....

Betty Cat and I moved out about two weeks ago.
I found a large affordable studio apartment about a mile from the house in Lansing proper. 
Technically I am still a little house on Big Horse Creek.
I do not have any outdoor space but the park is just across the street.
It's not the fanciest place, but all my needs are met!
I have lots of painting and fixer upper projects to do, but they are coming along.

Granny asked to keep the other two cats.
I think Miss Betty showing up was meant to be.
I was having a hard time finding an affordable rental that met my needs.
I was having a terrible day and stopped at little hole in the wall restaurant for some comfort food.
Before I went to restaurant I prayed that I would be able to find a place.
Something told me to pick up a little news paper called the Second Hand News and the apartment was the first ad I saw!
I called the next morning and quickly came to see it on my lunch break!
Here I am all moved in except for a few things.
I ordered a couch and a kitchen island I am waiting to receive.

A new start in life....
I feel like I am slowly getting my sparkle and sass back!

I just wanted to give a little update.
I will post more pictures later.




Thursday, January 19, 2017

95

On January 13th sweet Granny turned 95!!

95 and still the coolest lady I know.

We are so blessed to still have her with us.

We had a small Birthday party for her at the house.

Unfortunately, I had terrible cold and spent the evening in bed. Boo!

The pictures are courtesy of my Aunt Edie.

She had to tell everybody at the party that my Instagram friends wished her Happy Birthday from all over the world! York England to Brisbane Australia!











Meet Betty

Introducing our new kitten Betty Cat.

About 3 weeks ago I was watching a movie on my bed.
Both Mr. Jack the Cat and Sasha Belle were on my bed too.
I kept hearing a faint cry.
I thought it was the cats dreaming or something.
Later, I went to let Sasha Belle out of the house and on the porch was this sweet little kitten.

I think somebody knows I love cats and dropped her off.
I did try to locate her family just in case she may of wondered off.
I did not have any luck.
We decided to keep her!

She fits right in :)
She is so sweet and loving.
She is like a child playing with all her toys.
She reminds me allot of our beloved Muffin that past away several years ago because she eats, and eats, and eats. 
I bought some de-worm medicine from the vet just in case and set up appointments for shots and to get her fixed.

I wish I had a picture from the other day.
Betty Cat snuck some of Granny's left over Birthday cake.
It was adorable, she had orange icing all over her face and whiskers.

She curls up beside me at night to sleep :)

She is one of those little blessing in disguise.
I feel she was lead to us and we were meant to have her.
We already love her so.

I am not ashamed to admit I'm a cat lady ;)

Betty Cat

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Remembered....


My Mom loved holidays and always made them special for us.

My last really happy Christmas was 2003, the one before she died.

I have blogged before it's not about receiving gifts, but that you feel remembered and apart of a family.

Technically I have family, but I am not part of a family unit.

This year has been extra tough.

This is the first Christmas in 10 years I have not decorated a thing. My Aunts came over and decorated the house for Granny this year.

Ever since I was a child I have loved to browse antique shops and thrift stores. Something about them comforts me. I enjoy looking, even if I don't buy anything. Usually for Christmas Mom would go back and buy me something old I have been admiring in one of the antique shops.

I am always browsing about Salvation Army on my lunch break. The workers there are so nice and they do such good work in our community. It's very sweet that they remember me. A lady told me "I just love to see the things you buy." that particular day I bought an old handmade apron and a 1950's purse for my Aunt. Another day "Where is your bright lipstick today?" "More books for you and Granny today?"  Last week as I was checking out with some beautiful vintage gloves the worker said "we saved something for you!" They had put back and given me a very old cookbooks for Christmas. When I got back in my car I started crying. The sweetest gift anyone has every given me, and could not have come at a much needed time. Just the fact that they know "you like the old stuff" and remembered me. I could't help thinking just maybe my Mother knew I needed this little act of kindness this year. I felt her spirit close to me this holiday season and it was comforting and helped me to get by.





Weekend in Raleigh

Hello friends!

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas!

This is a late post I have been working on for several weeks and was not able to finish until now.

I ventured to Raleigh to spend the weekend with my Aunt Lisa.

It was so great to get to spend time with her and her husband Mike and friends Rebecca and Jen.

On Friday night we went to the North Carolina Art Museum. They have a fabulous exhibit Rolling Sculpture, Art Deco Cars from the 1930's and 1940's. Oh my word! they cars were amazing! I will try to post pics of few of them tomorrow.

After the art exhibit we had reservations at the fabulous Bella Monica Italian Restaurant.

Saturday after a wonderful brunch we went to see a Christmas Carol put on by Theater in the Park. Scrooge was played by  Ira David Wood III, who happens to be the actress Evan Rachel Wood's Brother.

Later in the evening we had homemade soup by my Aunt, her friends Rebecca and Jen came over, and we drove around neighborhoods looking at Christmas lights.

We stopped by one house that was on the Light Wars show that comes on every year.

Rebecca and I both showed up wearing the same dress only in different colors on Friday and Saturday! I guess great minds do think alike ;)

Uggg back to work tomorrow :( At least it's only a short week.

Much love,

~Tonya





Thursday, December 8, 2016

Card Swap

Hello friends!

Is anyone interested in doing a Christmas card swap?

Or do you know anybody who could use a card for a bit of cheering up this holiday season?

If you would like to participate please email me your address to:

tonyahartsog@gmail.com 

and I will get you one sent out!