Sad......

Do you ever have days where you just feel your ugly, everybody hates you, and you can't manage to do anything right? Well my year has been pretty much all of the above. I feel like such a failure, nothing in my life is what i even imagined it would be 10 years ago. I know what i want to do in life, i just have no idea how to make it happen. I feel like i am not living, just existing. I pray and pray and pray and God just does not listen.